Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Birthday Blog Post

I actually greeted this new year of my life sipping tea and listening to Phillip Glass, looking at paintings on a gallery website. It was not planned. A complete accident of circumstance. And it was wonderfully sublime. I felt the day of the 29th come upon me feeling, 'Yes. I am me.'

It was nice to be with one of my favorite people in the world, who, throughout all of these years, despite his quirks and neuroses, still provides the most wonderful companionship--John Quintana.

As the minutes rolled by, I couldn't help but think about me and my life. Life has perhaps never been a greater mystery to me than it is now. But if I were to die tomorrow, I can honestly say this has been my life, I have lived it the best way I know how.

I love you, my friends, whose many paths in life have been an example to me of diligent striving, hoping, believing, yearning, and willing. I love you my friends, who have shown to me different facets of myself and what i could grow to be, who have challenged me and made re-evaluate. I love my friends who are also my parents who have taught me lessons I am only now beginning to discover. I love my friend and companion and strength and hope that has been and is God, from whom I hope to continue to learn and continue to turn to in humility.

Life has been good to me. And gracious. I have no reason to feel anything less than gratitude.

As I listen to this beautiful music, I cannot help but be touched by, more than anything, the sublime gift that is beauty. Beauty in art, music, nature, spirit. In many ways, it too has been my god. I have sought after it so much. I am grateful to God that I can appreciate beauty and that it is here for us to learn from and be guided by.

A birthday gift to be grateful for. Beauty. Truth. Love.


CJ said...

Phillip Glass? Really?

CJ said...

Oh, and Yes, Happy birthday, I will do it here instead of Facebook. Happy Birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you.... Happy Birthday Dearest John......................Happy Birthday To YOU! (by the way the was me singing to you, and I was actually singing in my head while I typed so the dots are how long I held the notes! :)